This is a great question/encouragement, Ryn. I find myself wondering about this sometimes. Writing for my business legitimately feels like a creative process, but I do wonder if I am giving myself enough room to do something just because I want to and because I deserve that magic. A lot of the things I do I feel like I have to both enjoy and be "bettered" by in some way; I don't think I'm particularly pro-hustle, but productivity culture has done a number on me!! It's inspiring to think about ways to rebel and "make art anyway."
Related:
"The challenge wasn’t to blow up your life. It was to set off tiny bombs all the time. Maybe no one even noticed but you. It could be as small as clenching your fist."
Yes, you deserve the magic!! Totally relate to that urge for the things I enjoy to "be productive." I've found it healing to make "bad" art that I'm not planning on sharing with anyone. Also, I love that quote! Thank you!
Whenever social conditioning kicks it, my self-expression (and joy) gets pushed away. After years of working on my own awareness, I learned to notice when it happens or could happen and take countermeasures. As always, awareness is key, but working on our thought patterns and beliefs is, too. Thank you for your reminder, Ryn!
This is a great question/encouragement, Ryn. I find myself wondering about this sometimes. Writing for my business legitimately feels like a creative process, but I do wonder if I am giving myself enough room to do something just because I want to and because I deserve that magic. A lot of the things I do I feel like I have to both enjoy and be "bettered" by in some way; I don't think I'm particularly pro-hustle, but productivity culture has done a number on me!! It's inspiring to think about ways to rebel and "make art anyway."
Related:
"The challenge wasn’t to blow up your life. It was to set off tiny bombs all the time. Maybe no one even noticed but you. It could be as small as clenching your fist."
(Marie Solis, on Miranda July in the NYT)
Yes, you deserve the magic!! Totally relate to that urge for the things I enjoy to "be productive." I've found it healing to make "bad" art that I'm not planning on sharing with anyone. Also, I love that quote! Thank you!
Whenever social conditioning kicks it, my self-expression (and joy) gets pushed away. After years of working on my own awareness, I learned to notice when it happens or could happen and take countermeasures. As always, awareness is key, but working on our thought patterns and beliefs is, too. Thank you for your reminder, Ryn!
It's can be so hard to undo that conditioning!
Indeed!